i feel trapped!!!!

i feel so saaaded, tonite got majlis haul for Sidi Muhammad Dandarawi, Sidi Ahmad ibn Idris's second successor and guess what? i've got to book in at 10. suck thumb lah ah.

Sidi Faiz is in town, leading the majlis. i really miss him, it's been more than half a yr since i last saw him.May Allah grant Sidi Faiz long life and good health! amin!

They say zikr must be kept consistent, and always maintain good adab with ur mursyid and be in his physical presence, ni dah lebih dari 6 bulan, tak polish hati pun, jialat, sure karat one. Sidi faiz, when he leads a zikr, it's really powerful and effective, ucan literally feel the closeness.

i still remember. it was 2003, sec 2 that time. Ust hafazah ahmad was having a class at istiqamah, reading imam ghazali's kimiya assaadah, alchemy of eternal bliss. a great book i must say. he thought the principles of tariqah, ie how much we need to have a mursyid etc. he himself was a student of kiyai fadhlullah suhaimi and ustaz taha suhaimi, founders of al maarif, he must have wanted marifatullah for u maarifians. btw, i heard abt ustaz taha suhaimi's book on christianity, any idea where are they avaiable? it would be a rare collectible...

after those lessons with ust hafazah, i was invited by my fren ishak and his dad to attend a majlis zkr at-tariqah ahmadiah idrisiah at mqm habib nuh. that was it. the first time i met Sidi Faiz, it left a very strong, indelible impression on me and i felt attracted to that Order. the thing is, this path, was set out so timely, macam so chun chun gitu. i then consulted a close ustaz and related everything to him, he told me go ahead carry on.

Btw, this 1st may, do come down to masjid kassim in the morning, got maulid, ust hasbi pimpin, plus an official launching of a new website! tak sabar guer!